God & Myself

God & Myself


Your understanding is unsearchable and infinite,
Your arm cannot be stayed,
Your agency extends through limitless space,
All works hang on your care,
With you time is a present now.

Holy is your wisdom, power, mercy, ways, works.
How can I stand before you with my numberless and aggravated offenses?
I have often loved darkness, observed lying vanities, forsaken your given mercies, trampled underfoot your beloved Son, mocked your providences, flattered you with my lips, broken your covenant.
It is of your compassion that I am not consumed.

Lead me to repentance, and save me from despair;
Let me come to you renouncing, condemning, loathing myself, but hoping in the grace that flows even to the chief of sinners.
At the cross may I contemplate the evil of sin, and abhor it, look on him whom I pierced, as one slain for me, and by me.
May I never despise his [Christ’s] death by fearing its efficacy for my salvation.
And whatever cross I am required to bear, let me see him carrying a heavier.
Teach me in health to think of sickness, in the brightest hours to be ready for darkness; in life prepare me for death.
Thus may my soul rest in you, O immortal and transcendent one, revealed as you are in the Person and work of your Son, the friend of sinners.

The Valley of Vision, A Collection of Puritan prayers and devotions Edited by Arthur Bennett (Carlisle: The Banner of Truth Trust, 1975), 39. Note: I changed “thee” and “thy” to “you”.